My Mother

Abandoned, broken and beaten
searching for love from a broken mother
Who was battling her own demons

Year after year, man after man
Not knowing where my line i called my life
Ended, i don't know where i stand

You can say i came from a broken home
Or say i never did
I will never again let the true color show

Truth is, I've been to hell and back
But it's all in my head
I feel like these voices are on crack

 it's led me to confrontations
 Where I find myself facing my mother's demons
 I'm not good at math but I can do the calculations

The moment i went black for the first time
I felt the toxins sink deeper
The darkness rising to it's prime

I told myself a million times before
Her ways i will never repeat
Sadly i never did win that war

I had to grow up at a young age
Defending my siblings from the demons she let out
I was the one locked in that cage

Now that i have kids of my own
The tidle waves i call depression
That i got from my mother, seems to set in stone

I promised my baby boy at birth.
I won't let the underworld take me,
and i will make sure he knows his worth

I will not repeat in my mothers steps
I AM better than my mother
But i do have to give her some respect

If it wasn't for her toxic ways,
Showing me that not just any man is worth it,
I would never have been the strong mother i am today

I guess i have only her to thank
After all she showed me one important thing,
Being a mother at a young age, isn't a piece of cake.

I loved her after all she did
A mother's bond is unbreakable
I forgave her
I forgave all the things she did when i was a kid.
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