Struggling

At times it's been tough, I've thought "could I ever be enough?"
So many impurities, I focus too much on the negative, I tell myself "they're just insecurities"
It's all well and good, until it descends into hell. 
Life's peachy, it's a dream, pass me the cream!
What does it all actually mean?
I raise the question, there's a couple of suggestions 
A solution, a meaning, a reason I get that feeling. 
I get too deep, it may frighten the people I meet.
I'm just little old me, why can't you see?

I've learnt to give people a chance, not pass judgement at first glance. 
I'm proud of me, had excellent achievements filled the void in my heart, I replaced it with glee. 
They say there's a reason we meet certain people, personal development, a sequel? 

When you look at me, tell me "What do you see?"
I see success that I achieved under duress
I see a smile, you see a crocodile 
No crocodile tears over here, just a heart so big it recoils in fear. 
I struggled to let you in, so now I'll refrain as love is not a game.
I hang my head in shame, I promise you I won't do it again. Give me your heart I won't ever break it.
Now I see you,  the side I wanted to see as you stand here in front of me.
My heart beats, it's fantastic didn't you know it's as resilient as elastic? 
You may stretch me but I'll spring back, I'll always have your back. 
I'll always fetch me back from the brink with a smile and a wink.

I do love you ya know, I got you, I'll  not let you fall
My feelings they'll just continue to grow its not all for show, just so you know. ...

It's just me being me and that's all I can be x