YEARS YOU LOST

I'm waiting at the window
For you too come home
A part of me feels incomplete
A part of my heart is alone
I want you to tell me everything will be okay
And this pain you have brought upon me will go away
Stop being so selfish and try and be a mum
Stop giving up when things get tough, don't run
You missed so many things in my life, no it's not alright
Do you even care? I don't even remember a happy memory we share
I remember the bad things like when you walked out of my life
Or the time when you were behind bars
I remember because I'm left with permanent scars
You weren't there too see me struggle, you weren't there to ease my pain
On my heart, soul and mind these memories leave a stain
If I tell you how I feel you say I'm selfish and then turn everyone against me
People saying that I need to treat you kindly yet I can't
I try to forget and I try to move on
These memories will never truly be gone
You lost the most precious years of my life
Don't come back now and pretend things are alright
You left my life dark and numb
You don't even deserve to be called my mum.