YOUR DAUGHTER

It started back in 2012 when I suddenly hit rock bottom
I wasn't even 13 yet I had already seen things that cause me pain
On my heart , soul and mind they leave a stain
They come back to haunt me as I sleep
And when I wake up I feel so weak.

A permanent scar in my head
I couldn't even move out of bed
Not because I was lazy but because I had enough
What was the point in waking up and reliving it each day
This pain that captivates me will never go away
And it is something I found so hard to comprehend
My life was ripped down to the core, I wanted it to end.

I looked in the mirror and all I saw was a broken fragile little kid
So damaged over what her mother did
She committed a crime, she had to do the time,
For a 12 year old to be exposed to that is something I can't explain
Felling nothing but agony and shame
Feeling like what's the point in my life
All I saw was darkness it was never light.

Until one day I picked up my pen
And started writing down how I feel
Telling myself that in the future maybe my heart will heal
But for now I'm still a little bit broken
And yeah I leave most of it unspoken
Some parts are to painful to even think about.
But I've grown up i'm not that broken little kid
Look mum, look what I did
I have my own life and my own goals
I filled in all the gaps in them holes
Thank you for teaching me that pain can give you strength
I've grown up a lot since you went 

Sincerely your daughter