Changer

A thousand little cuts,
to bring back the light,
while shooting me back into darkness,
to hide me away,
to hide the reality,
of myself,
of my life,
of all the world,
that I am forced to be surrounded by,
that I will never escape,
no matter how hard I try.
I've slipped a thousand times,
harder than I care to admit,
I am have tried,
so very hard,
to admit it,
that I am fighting,
that I am trying to beat this,
to beat all of this,
to win,
this eternal fight,
that I will always fight,
but never really win,
no matter how hard I try.
I've screamed a thousand times,
these lies,
I tell myself,
so I think I am stronger,
than I really am,
so I can tell myself,
I have this strength,
I am the warrior,
not the woman left behind,
I am a fighter,
not the protected,
I can't even tell you,
it was for me,
I made the promise,
to fix myself,
I am liar,
and a cheat,
I will never be anything better