Dancing with the Devil

Ive never felt this down
I’m so empty I’m starting to quiver
Knowing I’ll eventually drown
Recalling the words of the woman who gave me worth
the woman who would die for me
the woman who put me on this earth
I can hear her voice
convincing me otherwise
but do I have a choice?
Remembering my late night cries
I hesitate a bit
but I grab the bill and take a hit

I Shook hands with the devil that day
Barely a soul with absolutely no self control
It’s December and I’ve been doing this may
My body worth less than a line
all for what's in a bag the size of a dime
I used to pray for God's sunshine
Now Im dying for Satan's snow 
They say "healing is all in the mind"
I say "what the fuck do you know?”

The flashlight shining right in my face
yet I still couldn't see the light
The doctor said "She can make it, she just needs to fight”
I loved being stuck in a daze
Months of denial
They said "It's fine, it's just a phase”

I asked for this the moment I took a hit
At the time I didn't know who I was dealing with
Talking to god's enemy all along
disguised well in his skin
It took me too long to realise
that his whole game was just a sin
Now the woman who gave me worth
has to watch me leave this earth
All because I took your hand as I let go of hers
Lying lifeless on this bed
80 pounds in this gown
you said it was all in my head
I told you I was feeling down