Erase

My heart was pounding in my chest
My head uncontrollably stars to spin
I don’t want to let it in
My legs and hands start to shake
It’s a constant ache
I try to ask people for help
I try to explain
Only no one truly understands 
This awful, dreadful pain

They can’t see it so to them 
It mustn’t be there
The thoughts get a bit to much somedays
Some of which are hard to bare
I try to shed tears 
Only I cannot
Thinking of all the things
I wish could be forgot 

I can’t erase
My heart, soul and mind are stained 
I felt like a zombie on the outside
Living but also dead
These thoughts rushing around
A million times an hour
Constantly burning holes in my head

I overanalyse 
I wish I could gain some wisdom
I wish I could explain to those I’m around 
I’m looking for an explanation 
Only none can be found

This is me
This is anxiety.