Pride×Fall

And it reads..
“Pride before the fall”
So in front of all
Who bought admission
I landed hand to knee, 
Stalled and empty
Seen by all who paid attention
In my vain attempt
To fulfill my boasting
Arrogance replaced innocence
Humility bowed to the verdict
Forcing this guilty plea 
To right these wrongs 
I send my apologies
To everyone that modeled me
As I masquerade 
Behind hidden faces
Receiving undeserved graces
Mercy, mercy me
While giving true lies
In the stead of honesty
Honestly, I enjoyed the ploy 
Loving the rush of adrenaline
Toyed with the hearts; T.L.C...
Tinder, love and caring
Staring blankly
Allowing them to believe love was found in my surroundings
Silently
My body language
Communicated fraudulently
Of dreams thought to be
You...
Thinking better of me
Thinking future
Thinking gloriously
Now thoughts pause
In awe, as you gather reason
Of “how could he!?”
How could I 
Saying things by design
To penetrate your border walls
Making memories in real time 
Despite
Intentions so dubious
Because I lacked maturity
and decency
Uncovering my shallow level of morality
Wrong or right
Black or white
True or false
I decently covered my 
Indecencies away from the public eye
Sickened to the core
And yes, I realize more and more
Simple apologies won't suffice
Though I am unworthy
I'll start my saying...
“Im Sorry”