SHELTER

The storm was created by you
I tried to shelter but I never could 
You were supposed to protect me 
From thunder and rain 
Instead you caused all of this pain 

You treated my heart 
Like it was some sort of toy 
You loved it for a while 
And shut it away when you got bored 
Yet I was just a kid 
Damaged and heartbroken 
By the things that you did
You chose drugs over us 
A few pills 
Then you stared selling them 
To pay for your bills 
Your house got raided 
The police took you away 
A part of my heart went cold that day
It was a long time coming
Now you aren’t running
You’re trapped behind bars 
Every-time I came to visit you 
I remembered the number plates of cars
Every Sunday I’d be there 
To show that unlike you I did care 
You promised me you’d change 
You never do 
I had to earn my love from you 

It wasn’t already there 
And I don’t know why
The times I’ve sat up looking at the stars 
And all I do is cry 
I write down how I feel 
It makes it feel better
I sometimes quote my poems 
With lines from my mums letter 
“ sweet dreams angels,all my love mum”
After that I just felt numb 
You came home 
And I thought you had changed 
Little did I know everything
Had definitely rearranged 
You were engaged 
To a woman I never knew 
I found it so hard to be happy for you