Absence

JOEL MY FRIEND

In 1995 is the first year I called you my friend.

We told each other...

as i pick up my ink filled quill

ideas spatter across a barren deserted wasteland of parchment...

I'm all alone and living with my shame.
Instead of counting sheep I'm counting sins and holding...

There`s a silence that envelops May

No other month can show.

It`s the month you left...

It`s so hard to live without you

My tears flow every day.

Especially when people speak to...

He is no longer mine

He has left me a great mountain of memories

His feather soft kiss...

I`m drowning in deep sorrow and such endless despair.

Mourning, I can barely hide my tears from the...

I woke up again in the

dark cold room of mine,
The sun never shine upon me.
Raging...

As I sit on the last step.
I hear a bluebird sing.
And a child asking for help.
As my...

He thought his pain would become easier to bear

With each passing year that he has spent alone....

Another lonely dawn of deep drifting snow

She wakes up all alone with an old heavy heart....

Nobody knows what they have got

Till they don`t have it anymore.

My son gave me many...

I had a talk with myself on a quiet walk

I got tired of not liking what I saw

There was...

The image of your

Face gone;

Stolen from

The mind's eye,

Exposed and ruined...

stating pain is normal
Feeling trapped like a zoo
Praying faith and positive thinking
...

Its hard to find the words that explains just how it feels
its hard to find a smile when your eyes...

Clinical coldness surrounds, as he sits down beside her
Yet in his vision, darkness is all he sees...