Confusion

You stare into the darkened void
The emptiness
lost to time and space
Emotionally...

In my dream you are there
I see the color of your eyes
The shape of your face
the size...

Who am I, searching for answers only to find nothing.
Who am I, staring in the mirror the reflection...

What we seem to have here, is another old man
feeling his way, while still above ground,
...

Did not know how to tell it
It started with all sorts of joy and happiness

Started with some...

Something there,
thick, heavy,
waiting on the horizon
longing to become the overcoat...

Is it wrong
If I don’t want to live
Nor want to die
Just want to disappear
Melt...

I think i might be broken
I see my friends do it so easily
Like a firework

BAM...

Re-
Birth birth

Bloody
rebirth
(Water? Fire?)

Blind
birth...

27/01/2021
Please erase my pain.
I just want to feel normal again

Pain,
...

Corruption, nicotine stains
Dark hazel eyes

Too many outcomes in between

Not enough...

Turn on the screen, lean forward with eyes sore
Thoughts melt and my sense of time distorts.
...

I'm glad I'm not, although maybe in some ways I am,
It's just too confusing, when Michael becomes...

I wonder around, I'm silent
now, " is this me "
do you see today, ?
I wonder can you...

Derelict mind
With eyes like marble stone
That gaze into an unknown space
The blight...

Dripping my chin has blood flowing from my mouth
I have been dreaming in a tunnel full of runnaway...

Let me tell you all about a chap named Dudley
To the women folk in town he is nice and cuddly...