ASHES

You never once listened to me
This is not how things were
Supposed to be 
You promised to love me 
I gave you my heart 
All you did was rip it apart 
Broken by all the things you did 
Broken because I was only a kid 
It hurts more and more everyday 
A part of me accepts 
Maybe it just won’t ever go away 

How can I forget,16 years of pure neglect 
Blaming myself because 
You never came home 
Surrounded by people, yet still so alone 
Every time I see you I feel such anger 
I feel such hate 
Don’t try to come back now it’s far too late 
I’m left feeling helpless, feeling numb 
Damaged by every mistake you made
I’m your daughter, yet I feel betrayed 
I’m done playing this ‘game’
No, I’m not talking about hide and seek 
I’m talking about the times 
You made me feel so drained, so weak 
You constantly put me down 
If I didn’t fall you’d be back for more
Until I was nothing but ashes on the floor 

You were the one who made
My once loving heart numb 
I was hurt by the woman 
Who was supposedly my mum
Maybe one day I’ll understand why 
You left me for drugs and another guy 
Why I was never good enough 
To fit into your life 
Don’t you worry, I’m alright
I’ll never forget the birthdays you missed
My forehead you never kissed 
As I went to bed at night 
The times you couldn’t see the smile 
I wore upon my face 
‘Sweet little innocent grace’

My innocence is now gone 
My trust has been broken 
I have so much pain 
Yet I leave it all unspoken 
And one day I will be ashes scattered on the floor
And you won’t be able to hurt me anymore.