Struggles

Worried of life
Wasting my time
I'm just a teenager
Crying
With a knife
...

Excite me beyond pen and paper
For I scribble...

I stood in a pool of piss
Unable to move
Body wracked with pain.
Blood stained vomit...

Light the fireworks loud and clear
celebrate New Year everywhere
the old year dies, evil...

So,
Here it goes...
I've became somebody I don't know, with feelings of highs and feelings...

In the shadows I hide
There my demons await
Crying out for help
Thinking it's to late...

The world has become numb
To its occupants cries and pain
It's heart is seven times callous...

"Hello again" my thoughts spoke, with dampened sorrow
"Speak to me" he said, with hope of a living...

When a kiss is enough and thats all I needed to feel
I don't want my last memory of you not smiling...

I tried, I failed
I cried, I prevailed
Their lies broke me
And I hated myself
...

Is it wrong when your own flesh and blood pushes you down over and over so many times that when they said...

(circa 1973)

When Jimmy the Barber

from West Milford NJ

was...

When every single day is long and requires hard labour,
When in a million years you cannot envisage...

The anxiety I feel...
when I've been awoken from sun
it's always there, from dusk till dawn...

For Sarah Critchley...

Struggles seem too big sometimes...

Sleepless nights and broken...

I’m weary tired frustrated and alone
Feeling weak and exhausted in my bones
I am unfaithful,...

Not many will stand beside you
As you walk a path of pain
As you journey through the darkness...