Unparalleled Thoughts

Unparalleled thoughts
Almost caused my surrender to consequences
Amidst the pain consciously present
When searching for anything too.... 
Dull the confusion
Using deadly instruments to mend or send a shot of adrenaline through the veins of deceit 
“By any means necessary"
Seems drastic but how do I cope,
With the dramatic task of life?
Management isn't the goal 
So I hold tight to damaging practices trying to handle; more appropriately...
One blink, from a unsuspecting eye flashes untold stories
That fuel worries of my insecurities
Biographical tragedies act out scenes written in my darkest dreams
Cold sweats of boiling point anger
Dance around emotional instability
Still? I am constantly lurking
Lacking discipline...
Focused on plotting revenge
Toward the antagonistic silhouette 
That penetrated my physical form of security and purity
With seed planted, the birth of destruction are unavoidable
No new beginnings 
But this two way dead end 
Gives excuse of reasons why I grip 
This murder weapon in-hand
-RAGE-
Misused and unguided, along side my hypocrisy 
Speaks volumes of how my heart and mind tussles 
For my body is without substance,
An Empty vessel
Hoping that misery floats
As I'm gasping for oxygen
In a constant to attempt to capture...
One breath of air
So as I sink to the depths
Before my death 
I stare to the rippled reflected  moon and ask, “Is this my doom?"
Unparalleled Thoughts