Recovery

Thirty days.
I made it...
I'm finally, on my way.
Thirty days of sobriety.
I...

A quiet stumble lapses,
till the days release,
my body unfurling
like fresh wings...

I remember a time when my thoughts were drowned out,
when my very being was no longer present....

A huge part of my life had been taken away but The people around me never knew that i had a Verbal Gun held...

My head filled with thoughts, like an overflowing bathtub
A constant war between me and I
...

"Be not of this world,
of what the flesh desires.
Because it may start,
innocent...

here is a Rape poem

see you might think
“Oh god heres another one, feminazi, help me that...

"Reality,
was never a friend to me,
in active addiction.
It was my worst enemy,...

"This urge to help others,
creates such a fervor.
It resembles the love,
to a child...

"We,
especially in recovery,
are but a vessel,
for God's Will,
to overflow and...

The day came,anxiety hitting an imaginary roof
I had waited so long,I had fought nail and tooth...

The familiarity of what you feel surrounds you...

It's in every place you look...

In...

Now, I just have to get through the day
Knowing you are just one call away
But you don't want...

Life is good
but God is better
love and life and God together
the three things needed...

The blade of fire
Gray and dirty
Warm down his face, neck, shirt.

Fragments after...

Feeling tired of keeping a smile
Forever painted on my face
Feeling tired of always fighting...

I am going to take all this pain and plant roots deeper than the farthest reaches of the ocean,
...