Suicidal

* this poem is my first try at a love story. Feel free to kind of interpret it in different ways but...

I'm sorry for the words I'm about to say.
By the time you read this Note I'll be far away.
...

Perspective
Ajla Mesinovic

It's called love

Fathers and mothers
Growing up...

My mind
An ocean
And ive forgotten how
To swim
Forgotten?
Given up hope...

What if
This is the way
Its supposed to end
What if
I can't continue
...

What am I waiting for
someone to live for
or an excuse to be alive
Am i waiting for...

Worried of life
Wasting my time
I'm just a teenager
Crying
With a knife
...

Because I could not drown for suicide,
It did kindly drown for me.
Suicide, suicide, every...

Suicide
a term
At the tip of my tongue
As that last breath
Flees from your...

Dressed inside this hated skin
very crowded so many squeezed in
we argue dragging fingers...

Across the depth,
Across this sanctuary,
my steps in kidnap, sink amongst the changing...

Hushabye baby
Don't fall asleep
I know you're hurting right now
I see the tears roll...

tear out the stolen soul
euthanized slow against the last fight of breath
display in cold...

Home alone with 16 bottles of pills
You used to beat me down and I'd get back up
I used to...

I know what I am capable of
I just want to love
Myself
As I pull a book off the...

I want
To hold the knife
I want
to come to life
I want
To leave a slice...