Innerstruggle

I am the clown
I am always funny, charming and warm,
I feel empty, sad and lonly sometimes...

Inquisitive spies,
I know what you're thinking!
Wandering eyes,
"She's not even eating...

When you are born into pride
from the womb of your father
realizes that you have been exiled...

Weeping willow stands alone.
Hanging head, behind pendulous wall.
Sun's golden rays, love's...

Screaming out at this worn out soul
Is a stern voice within my cautious head
As it doubts my...

I can relate to Hank Williams Sr.
"I'm so lonesome I could cry"
I wake up everyday looking at...

Moments of clarity
Chill the insides of me
Chaos and calamity
Mixed with despair...

Sorrow in the marrow
which feed my bones
this overdose of Razors swallowed
just...

“Hello I am Dr Millar I will listen in your ear, I shall move my chair close to yours so the two of us of...

Faces that we see, we confess, only to the images looking back,
With darkness I plead, we undress,...

A place where you give
where you take
when you please
then you leave

...

Waiting in an Outpatients
Everyone’s been there
Shuffling thru the queue of people
...

Constantly wondering will it be okay
I got a letter to inform me of my appointment yesterday...

Caught myself the other day, unaware I was thinking.
Swallowed...while I was unconsciously day...

As I mature I evaluate my life
I divert from unnecessary negatives
Things that cause...

Sanitisation and respiration
Formulating excitations
The realisation of expectation
...

How am I supposed to tell the person I love most in the world that I want to die?

How am I to look...