Disapointment

Mommy dearest
Why did you always lie
You told me that you loved me
Then you changed...

At first I was accepting every word that was said
I stood and listened as the sentenceSwam inside...

I like music I like the dance
moving kind of slinky
I hum the tune it's like a trance...

(circa 2015)

Having lost my teaching job,
the year after my peers
voted me...

You notice the tick on the side of my shirt,
and the size and price of my skirt.
You notice...

my name is Alan
and I've reached
rock bottom
you are caller no 99
please wait...

It hurts to live, it hurts to breathe.
It hurts to be chained i want to be free.

It hurts to...

You always felt more than me,
Your pain has always been greater
than mine...

known all before,

life after life

all of you-before:

the eye spark, no mornings,...

I knew a little girl
With the most caring soul and heart
It was that one trauma in her life...

Letting go was possibly one of the hardest things
That I ever had to do
I miss you sometimes...

I go everyday with the fear of breaking down in front of them

They keep hurting me more and more as...

The poster caught my eye, it drew me in

You can look like this, you too can be thin

Stop...

I've been through so much in these thirty five years
So many scrapes and scars and wasted tears...

Light my cigarette he said to me in a demanding voice

it had been a while since I had seen his face...

do you feel that you have been dishonored and me destroyed

some things that were said I cannot...